Till Death Do Us Together
Two mornings ago, I was finishing a two kilometre run and was near my house when I heard a loud crunch as something hit the front of the white Hyundai Atios speeding past.
“Holy shit, it got split in two!” I thought, as I looked at two twitching halves about a meter apart from each other.
There was no blood though.
I looked closer and saw they were two separate birds and they were on their sides coincidentally looking symmetrical.
I heard the next car rushing down and I brushed them off the road with my feet.
And now, one was laying on its back and other on its side, with their chests moving at the pace of a fast EDM song.
Looking down, with my hands on my knees, I wondered if they’d ever fly again, if they’d make it and I looked at a brick laying nearby.
Besides it’s chest, the one bird facing up laid stiff.
The other was at least moving its limbs while occasionally opening and closing it’s mouth.
Minutes past and their chests are moving at a slower and slower pace.
Then suddenly, the stiff one’s chest becomes stiff.
The brick was in my peripheral vision as I now looked at the live one.
And after a few moments it kicked, jerked it’s wings and flipped itself over to lay on its chest.
Yeeesssss, that’s what’s up!
It kicked it’s feet again.
I waited for it to continue.
Surely it would fly at any moment now.
But it didn’t…
And slowly, the breathing pace slowed down.
Every now and then it moved its head or jerked it’s wings.
The chest expanded and contracted once every two seconds…
Then three seconds…
Then five seconds…
I waited for another unexpected breath but nothing came.
What a way to go.
Later on that night while walking home, I saw someone who owed me money and remembered that it was pay day and thought, “This is my sleeping time so I’ll go remind him tomorrow.”
I saw through my own bullshit.
I hate asking people for stuff, however I also acknowledged that I avoided following up at that moment because it felt uncomfortable.
The morning incident and that discomfort intuitively reminded me of a sentence from a book by a Roman emperor.
So I decided to remind the dude to pay me even though I might’ve seemed a little rude doing so while he was hanging out with his friends.
What did I remember from the book?
“You may leave this life at any moment: have this possibility in your mind in all that you do or say or think…” — Markus Aurelius.
P.S. Finally have electricity again after over 14 fucking days, JESUS!